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April 27th, 2007


12:16 am - Linky-link
http://free-game-downloads.mosw.com/

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May 4th, 2006


11:20 pm - Sewing Machine Question
Hey all,
I'm new here and I'm in desperate need of help. I would be eternally grateful to anyone who would be willing to give me assistance. I've never used a sewing machine before, but I've gotten into hand sewing a lot lately. I decided to purchase a sewing machine after seeing all of the awesome stuff that the people in this community have made. I'm on a budget though, and wanted to get one off ebay. The problem is, I know absolutely nothing about sewing machines. I mean NOTHING. There were three machines I was thinking of purchasing. One is a Simplicity SW210 Denim Star for $69.99. The other is a Quickstitch Sewing Machine SF-402 for $89.99. The third is a Brother LS2125i / LS-2125 i Sewing Machine for $89.99. I am going into this completely blind and relying on your mercy to help me pick which I should buy. If anyone has any advice or any information at all that could help me, please, please, please share. Sorry about the text-only. Thank you!
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Current Music: Mellowdrone

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September 29th, 2005


12:39 am - We are the clumsy passersby.
I can't tell if I still love him. Sometimes he makes me happy, but more and more now I feel nothing. I'm scared.

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February 25th, 2005


09:04 pm - You can't take anything with you except the love I have for you
K so I am in the weirdest mood. I can't figure out how to feel right now. I feel like I want to cry, but not really sad cry, just to cry because it's been a long time since I cried. This is going to make no sense, but...I know that I'm leaving behind things I'm not ready to leave, and I'm moving on when I want to stay still. Or go back. Or I really don't know. I miss things I'm trying not to miss. But at the same time it's good to miss what's gone, because it helps me remember that it's gone, and not coming back. And it's nice to know that some people feel the same way about me as they did the day I left. It reminds me that I don't have to leave everyone behind. What can I do? I'm surprisingly calm about it. Friends come and go. I've lost quite a few over my life. And I still fucking love every single one of them. That doesn't go. Every one of them was different. But in the end, the goodbyes were all the same.

...The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same
Love is so short, forgetting is so long....

Now I'm done not making sense. I think it probably made some sense to the people that matter anyway.

Yeah so today in psychology we played these computer game thingys. And it was like 250 trials of trying to get a smiley face to appear...I could explain it but it'd be way boring. When we're done everyone's sitting around and Alan asks if we all figured it out. And everyone's like, "Yeah. You had to do variable on green and repetition on yellow." And I didn't figure it out. And I was trying so hard. Everyone else did. But here's the kicker...the rats did the same trials, only with food instead of smileys, and they all figured it out too. Yup. I'm apparently dumber than a rat. I guess it's not news.

I have to come up with $1,000 to take bio at PSU in the summer. Good luck with that, me.
Current Mood: indescribableindescribable
Current Music: You by VAST

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February 23rd, 2005


06:03 pm - A year of too many goodbyes...
Comes The Dawn

After a while you learn the subtle difference
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't always mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
And presents aren't promises
And you begin accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes open
with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build all your roads on today,
Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans.
And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
So you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers
And you learn that you really can endure...
That you really are strong
and you really do have worth...
And you learn and learn and you learn ...
With every goodbye, you learn.

by Veronica A. Shoffstall
Current Mood: peacefulpeaceful
Current Music: True Believers Bouncing Souls

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February 3rd, 2005


11:19 pm - Punk is dead.
Fuck all those punks. They're all a bunch of fucking hypocrites. I know Sid Vicious died today way back when, so maybe it's ironic...but whatever. I just hope I don't become one of those 80s kids.
Current Mood: cynicalcynical
Current Music: Sex Pistols

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January 30th, 2005


12:30 am - Kisses aren't contracts.
I'm watching Troy. I only rented it so as to ridicule it and feel superior to the film-makers. It's working. I thought it would at least be LOOSELY based on the Iliad or something...but it's not. And the Iliad is actually a pretty good story and this isn't so I'm not sure what they're thinking here.

Um...Parker just called me and I talked to Jake too and their girl friend and it was funny cuz they were all drunk. And Jake said they'd come visit me after he gets a job and that would be cool except it won't happen.

K so art on Wednesday:
Professor: "Let's go around and each say our names and where we're from and one thing about ourselves."

Me: "I'm Emily...I'm from Salt Lake City, Utah...and...um...I had all my shots..." (I panicked!)

Oops.
Current Mood: thirstythirsty
Current Music: Dresden Dolls "Perfect Fit"

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January 20th, 2005


11:45 pm - You taste pretty! My tongue told me so.
Ohmyhell! I am so not ready to go back to school. Nononono!! They can't make me! Next week is going to be such a landslide of work. I guess Rhett is coming up to Portland so it'll be cool to chill with him. Also, people need to send me mail. Packages are preferable but letters are acceptable. Tyler just sent me his new demo. It's pretty rad. Um...I actually washed my sheets so maybe I should go sleep on them. I'm outtie!
Current Mood: rushedrushed
Current Music: Green Day "American Idiot"

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January 17th, 2005


12:03 am - Amateur Cartography
I think I just witnessed a murder. If I am dead tomorrow, it's because I saw the homeless guy across the street beat someone to death, and he has now come to kill me so I can't finger him.

I am way depressed. I talked to my mom yesterday, and she has quite the way of making me feel like shit.

I want to quit school. I like it, but it's costing so much money, and my life isn't headed anywhere anyway. I might just stop after this year. I was thinking I could move into a little studio around here and get a job filing or something. Then I could pay off my car and my student loans and credit cards and get a dog. And just sorta fade into the background. There is too much shit I'm holding on to that I should've left behind. But I'm sure I'll just keep going to school so that I can graduate and then do exactly the same thing I could do now. I'm so useless. I'm of no value whatsoever to anyone or anything in this world. I'm one of those drones who is just a waste of time and food and space. Ok. I'm done with that now.

It was weird going home for Christmas. And very disappointing. But not surprising. I knew things would be different, but I wasn't ready for how much. Five months doesn't feel like that long, but it's long enough for people to change so much you can barely recognize them. It made me not-so-eager to visit again all that much. Except to see the new puppy. Cuz she's cute. But other than that, I'm freaked out to go back. At least I know I'm not moving back to Salt Lake any time soon.

(No one likes to imagine the person they love touching someone else)

Fuck closure.
Current Mood: lonelylonely
Current Music: My Beloved Monster--Eels

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January 13th, 2005


10:27 pm - It took the best of me to let go of you
Jesus. Valentine's Day stuff totally depresses me. Except I saw the cutest suckers in a store. They were colorful and shiny. And we all know how much I love shiny stuff. It's totally dumb and cliche to be annoyed by all the hearts and pinkness and joy, but I'm 800 miles away from my boyfriend, so sue me.


School starts in 10 days. Even the thought of it exhausts me. Could I be any lazier? And I have no money to buy books until I get a new job, which I can't get until February, or I get my disbursement check from the school, which I also can't get until February. I hate money. I love scotch, scotchy scotch scotch.


I woke up this morning to find a dead mouse in the middle of the floor. It was sad. Poor little guy. I'm afraid my downstairs neighbors poisoned it. I was seriously meaning to go get a humane trap, but the nearest hardware store is really far away and I am really lazy (see above). I miss Salt Lake in that everything you might need is so close. And clean. And open late. And I have four puppies there and only one here. 4>1. But it is so pretty here and not snowy and people aren't so fucking uptight.

There are the raddest olive groves just outside the city where I want to go play capture the flag. That'd be hardcore. But no one else seems to agree. Just wait until they get a little more stoned...

I love Jon Stewart.
Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Current Music: Sing Along Forever--Bouncing Souls

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